Joy

As always, lots going on in the family home. some sadness and grief about old relationships. Engaged an ex in a long conversation today. Rocky grounds as on a good day it provides closure and on a bad day it provides closure. Feeling more in my power as I am honouring all the people in my head. Feeling some joy about the future possiblities of my life as I am focusing more on my sphere of influence and less on past, future and other people where I have no control. There is often a feeling of unease about being in this place becuase it is new to me. Today I felt like wanted to go back but it truly is a path of no return.


I wrote this poem to honour the joy

JOY

Joy slips into my life when I’m not watching

I see it in my sons’ eyes

A life lived is worthy of joy

There is joy in struggle

As it honors the soul

There is joy in sharing sadness

As it opens the door to intimacy

And there is joy in the daylight that follows the dark nigh

As only then do we know we are part of something bigger

February 2010