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Well today the family in my head decided to put on some movies but luckily my awareness is sufficiently high that I know how they end, catastrophically badly, and out of desperation ask my higher power to turn off the movies and give me some peace. Out of interest today’s movies were about relationships, money and work; three of the most highly played ones in my collection.
I was talking to a fellow traveler tonight about the concept of “my best thinking”. Previously this was something that I believed by itself would ensure I had a wonderful and fulfilling life full of tremendous achievements, as I considered it capable of anything. Instead I have found that it is more complicated than this. My vast cognitive skills were doing what they do, and working on what they were asked to, but who was watching them . What comes up for me is that they are the genius child in the family, but with no parental supervision were focused on ways of causing damage to the house. You may ask why were they trying to damage the house. Without supervision and with the emotionally maturity of a young child they played out fear and anger and what a self-maintaining cycle that was. Now there is an adult watching who sees them as an important part of the family but like all children requires some supervision, boundaries and a loving parent who will protect, guide and discipline them. They are no longer considered a higher power, as even though that do represent my best thinking, there is a power much greater then than for me to tap into (isn’t that a relief !!!!!).